Sad about May

I am really sad that it is already May! It just means that I will be going back to work in a few weeks. Even though it is just part-time (Tuesday through Thursday) I am going to miss my sweet Natalie like crazy! I have also talked about the possibility of staying home, but in the back of my mind truly thought that I would be ready to go back to work and get into a routine of my own. After being home with her for over 2 months now, I have to say that I love being a mom and taking care of her and could definitely see myself as a stay-at-home mom. Maybe part-time I will have the best of both worlds by being able to be home with her 4 out of 7 days a week and making a little bit of extra money with a little bit of time to myself.  I am going to cherish every day I have with Natalie until I return back to work at the end of May and will cherish even more the shorter amount of time I will get to spend with her when I'm back to work.

I keep praying to God for guidance in the direction He wants us to be, whether it be in Terre Haute or elsewhere. I wrestle with this daily because I have no idea right now what/where/when...etc. I know there is a plan for us and I just want to make the right decisions along the way. Adulthood gets complicated sometimes with all the life-changing decisions that need to be made along the way!

One day Natalie, you will be wanting to grow up faster than you already are and I hope you will listen to me and others not to wish your innocent youth away because you will grow up fast enough!  I know that is a hard concept to grasp until you are already in adulthood and realize that things weren't really as bad as you had thought when you were younger :) I love you baby girl, and I can't wait to see who you become (but don't grow up too fast, okay)!